As I walk these lonely streets
My heart comes to me:
Young lover, why do you cry the songs of Angels?
Why do seek God, but roll around with devils?
Why do you make life harder than what it hast to be?
What be the picture show in the high-rise above
A couple consummating their love
I can remember those days, kind of
Rolling around butt naked in bliss
With doors shut, and his sweat hits both of my lips
Then as soon as reality rears its head, I’m disposed and dismissed
So maybe I can’t remember those days
The consummation yes, but not the love
My heart comes to me again:
Young lover, why do you even try?
Why can’t you see he is a bad guy?
Why don’t you just say goodbye?
What be the next movie I will see
A family eating dinner
I bet its tacos, kids love tacos
I don’t eat them, but he loves them
He eats me like a taco, loves my taco, but doesn’t love me
If he would let me be his one, I would make them for him all the time
I would make them for his son, which would be my son
I would make them for our daughter, she would be just like him!
If he would simply just love me…then we would live the American Dream!
Just like the family, maybe then, my tears wouldn’t stream
My heart comes to me again:
Young lover, why don’t have patience?
Why can you, for now, be complacent?
Why don’t you let Him bring you a Man, with true commitment?
Part Three, the finale:
An argument between man and woman, the woman holding a baby
Adam and Eve, with Eve holding Cain
He tells me this how his and hers fights go
How they don’t get along, how they ended it before it got worse
How he tells me they’re from two different worlds
As this is relayed to me, all I can think is:
I wish it were me. I wish I was her, his One True Love
As she is in his phone
I wouldn’t argue with him
If I was his One, I would be his peace not his strife
But I am number Two, only an afterthought
When they fall out, here I am, to be his peace when Its convenient
My heart comes to me again:
Young lover, why must you do this?
Why can’t you leave them be?
Why you must be so desperate for love, that you accept abuse?
Then, all the blinds shut in the building, and out the front door, God stepped to me,
And he said:
Young lover, why ignore your heart?
For you are ignoring me!
The only love you deserve is from the Divine!
Which comes from me, because you are my precious daughter!
You will have a righteous man, who loves you as I love you!
Who loves you the same as how my Son loved the church!
Stop throwing yourself to the wolves, who hide behind wool!
Seek love with in yourself, and your soul will glow!
And that righteous man will be guided to you!
Be patient, as it is a womanly virtue!
All good things meant for you, I will bring!
And God departed, and I hugged my heart!
Because his spirit is with me,
For he always makes a crooked path straight
My soulmate will come, just you wait!
August 10th, 2023
Suede and Sunshade 