• Mommy guess what? I won a grammy!

    me and my mother were watching the grammy’s. i told my mother that she would see me accept the “song of the year” award for songwriting. in part i was joking and in part i was serious. in my notebook, there is a section called “spirituals” dedicated to songs.

    favorite songwriters:

    • prince
    • babyface
    • king david (wrote half of the psalms)
    • king solomon (wrote the other half and the song of solomon)

    ever since nicki minaj and megan thee stallion were going back and forth. i’ve been writing lil’ rap bars here and there. i even wrote a diss nicki could use against meg. i should of sent it to her so she wouldn’t have released that tired diss. i told one of my friends that i would love to be a female rapper’s ghostwriter.

    my raps are…explicit lol. here is a taste of one that is

    November Rain: (inspired by foxy brown’s gotta get you home)

    Let me tell you about one night in November
    
    But the air was so heavy you would think in was still September
    Time stood still, going for 21 nights of pleasure
    Tale of a boy who meets a girl
    And a girl who meets the world

    Ready, set, go!

    You see I'm used to being showered with diamonds and pearls
    By Bustas who talk a good game but true colors make ya hurl
    Everything they could do, I could do better!


    Before then I was in a desert
    But I kept my Oasis far away from buzzards
    I took time off when I had my daughter
    Gone through the mud with my baby father

    But the my homegirl Hayden came and said
    It's time to open that watering hole for a real tiger

    I met this ham off the gram' fine Shawty
    Skin like honey dew, hair like linen
    Like the girls say its givin'
    Shit slung like Bratwurst, sung like a canary
    Breath sweet as a starburst, specifically the cherry

    that scene in latto’s “sunday service” where she’s handed the birkin bags is so fire, just fyi. i might post more raps in the future, just know:

    funnily enough, you can thank prince for the creation of these advisories.

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  • theres no sunshine without rain

    40 Days And 40 Nights

    I am a woman, and I feel many things

    Some days I feel Happy!

    Some days I feel Scared!

    Some days I feel Lovely!

    Some days I feel Flared!

    The one feeling I feel most…is Sadness

    I go back into the times of the Flood

    I was a tiny cloud in the Firmament 

    And my God told me his plans for the World

    And I grew intense sorrow, I swelled over the land

    My brightest and lightness became heavy and dark

    I soon began to feel that spark

    My tears cascaded down to the ground

    My whaling became the omen of sound

    For 40 days I blocked the Sun

    For 40 nights I blocked the Moon

    For God had told me, “The Cleansing has Begun”

    “The new age will be on us soon”

    On the 41st day, I looked below

    There it was, the Rainbow!

    The dove, she fly across the sky

    “For here is my Covenant, that nothing else is meant to die!”

    And God then said to me:

    “My beautiful creation”

    “Your sorrow is given by me!”

    “For you lead with your heart, like me!”

    “Turn it into forgiveness, like me!”

    “And seek beyond the clouds, for light is the key!”

    And so, I am here now!

    And when I feel sadness, I know I am okay

    Because it is okay to feel sorrow, because it is God-Given

    I seek forgiveness, for others and myself!

    Because I am a child of God, a woman of Herself!

    -sunshine, (july 23rd, 2023)

    I wrote this after a “breakup”. feeling the same way now.

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